Laughing While I Wait

For the record, and because I'm feeling especially generous right now, my husband rarely fails in making me feel better. I can have a rough day, be utterly discouraged, and he can brush it all away with a So? Just do it this way. I can be so worked up about things and he can be so laid back about everything. Sometimes it's a good fit and sometimes it drives me crazy; but tonight, it was a very good thing.

It all goes back to me still not having a job and still being in school. I was hoping to finish by this December; it's now looking like it may be to my benefit to finish four months later (in April 2012). On the plus side, I could not be so rushed and push off those student loans a few extra months. I'm obviously not working anywhere anytime soon. On the downside, I really just want to be done. He's got his eye set on a master's for me. Heck, I think he dreams of a doctorate. He really is all about me.

I get so stressed about not working and not bringing in extra income. My heart cried out to the Lord today because I know that I have so much to offer. Do you get that this is not pride here? I know how He has made me. I know when He is smiling on me. I'm telling you people... I love to teach! And write! And talk! Good grief, just give me a classroom with bored stares and heavy sighs. I'll have them singing prepositions and identifying presidents and doing the diagram dance within a matter of weeks. I'm crazy enough to love that stuff.

And yet I wait.
But we were here earlier today.
I promise I won't go back.

My husband. Next to the Lord and my mom and dad, he is my biggest fan. You know, he rarely reads this blog. He just never thinks about it really, but when he does, he always says that same thing. That's really good. A meal hardly ever goes by that he doesn't tell the kids, Boy, your mom can really cook. And most nights when he comes home? The house sure looks nice. Look, I've never claimed to be all about women's rights. I like being a wife. I like being a mom. I find much joy in shiny floors and folded underwear.

Boring? Maybe.
Lonely? Never.
Depressed for long?

Not a chance.

Yep. I had a rough day. Kind of emotional. Up and down. Bills discourage me. Knowing I've been passed over for a job I really wanted? Major bummer. College courses not following my plan only add to my pain. Then again, I could possibly be graduating a month before our oldest graduates high school and I gotta tell you, that kinda made me smile.

I wonder if he'll pose with me in graduation caps?

God has a plan.
My husband makes me laugh.
The kids forgot to do the dishes.

It'll all work out in the end.